There is no doubt this year has had it’s ups and down. I have had more downs than ups and that is the story that I have told myself.
I had a plan in the year to get married and it didn’t go according to plan. I had to find a new plan. My plan has not been easy as I have suffered, but I am still rebuilding myself. As the holidays pass the devil releases it’s grip on me.
But I’m planning on finishing this year on a good note and I’m leaving this hurt behind me. I couldn’t get out of my head what happened out of my head and as the holidays come, I revisit these emotions. Deep down I am looking forward for the future as the future awaits me. It’s just the future is not here soon enough.
The future is something that I look forward to. The future is something that I gear for. It is something that I will dig down deep and pull out. Because I will restore hope in a life that maybe down at the time.
I don’t know what I will do next year, when you think you have something mapped out and it changes, you need to rethink a strategy and that is what I’ve been doing and this means Financially. Financially I have taken a serious hit. But I endured the punishment and I have not gotten ahead. I pray to God that this punishment on me ends and I could prosper.
I want to invest my money on my business, but I can’t invest because all my money goes elsewhere. I pray that God has mercy on me. I pray God helps my business prosper. I want to be able to live on my own. I want to have a car that I can travel. I want a better life and not the life that I am living right now.
Every chance I have to get ahead someone is always knocking me down. I want to succeed once in my life and Fuck everyone besides bills who asks me for cash next year. I am looking out for my own dreams. Without my dreams who am I. Why can’t I get ahead when I have businesses just sitting there. And not a single soul has helped me with my businesses. Thank you.
Next year is different. And just as I said that my life will be different and I will be on the top of High School after a horrible Freshman year. I will be on the top Financially. I don’t give a shit what punishment is on me I will rise above hell to be on the top of my game. This is what I’m going to do. I didn’t want to do it, but I got forced into it. I’m going to make a lot of money and build a future because that seems to be the only way. My business will prosper and no remorse. I will attack like the wolf if I have to. No surrender to this hell that I am undergoing. It’s time to get back on track and next year I accomplish a feat unthinkable I will get on top if I have to by myself and if anyone wants to join the bandwagon I’ll have to think about it.I will be on top Financially even if I work until I’m my 80’s and I die. I will take care of business. Next year begins that road. I will be a millionaire by the age of 50 years old. And I will retire at the age of 55 years old and be able to be my own boss and nothing is going to stop me.
As I gear up for next year I am hungry and I am hungry to succeed. Nothing is going to stop me.